Well this page is possibly the last I write. Ally sent me a long email last night, and it has left me very upset, and may spell the end of Michelle. I will do anything for her, and so I have left the ultimate decision to her.
The mail said lots of things, some I knew some I didn’t, the general gist is that she considers Michelle to be the same as having an affair, and with a person she does not want to meet. She has said she wants to move out for a while to collect her thoughts, and that might be a permanent thing. I have asked her to be honest with herself as well as me, and if she really wants to go, not to live with a friend for a while to get used to it but just to go and to say so. I’ve also told her that I love her and that if she really does hate Michelle that much, and that she does really love Matthew, that I will stop the medication (permanently) and allow nature to take it’s course. Of course that means the end of Michelle, and probably the end of Matthew as well, but she gets to make that choice not me.
I might put in the details of the last few days, but I really don’t feel like it at the moment.
All that know of this blog, I wish you well, and if you need to get a hold of either Matthew or Alison, you can using our first names at the isux.com domain, which we own.
Update:
Lots of tears last night, and at the moment, Ally is still telling me to take medication so she hasn’t asked me to stop. For those with the question, it’s not something I want to do but it is something I will do if I have to to keep Ally (and it’s something I expect I’ll regret for the rest of my life if I do).