Lost the love of my life.

Well I’m sure now, Ally is lost to me. She cannot accept me or Matthew.

Last night from the point of leaving her friends she didn’t speak a word to me, this morning she didn’t speak a word to me. She went to bed on her own, leaving me freezing, chilled to the bone from helping her friends. I am an embarrassment to her and there is no way to avoid or alter that.

All is lost for me, I think.